Mornings

Mornings are the hardest part of the day for me right now.  Every morning right as I am waking up, but before I am fully awake, I'm in this state of semi-consciousness, and I think,

Did everything really happen or was it all just a bad dream??

A second later, I am fully awake and then I realize,

Yes everything did really happen....

Then since I usually wake up first, and everyone is still asleep, the house is quiet and I am left with nothing to do but think.